After a deep breath

   I haven’t written a lot recently, I know. I guess I was a little bit depressed with the results of fuvest and all the new experiences that I’m facing right now (which are good and scary at the same time). Well, as you may have realised, I didn’t pass in USP. I was shocked, really. I know there was a GREAT chance I wouldn’t pass, but when we have hope, it sometimes gets bigger than the truth.

   But I guess I’m getting better. The pain of not having my friends around me anymore is getting weaker. I know they’ll always be there. At least for now I know that. My classmates are very funny and are always laughing. I already have a work to do! I’m enjoying doing it, tough, haha!

   Life goes on! I promised myself I would see the positive side of things and I WILL manage to do this more often. I keep watching my dose of tv shows wich always cheer me up. I keep listening to music. I look forward to buying my college books and to studying. I wanna be a good student, one of the best ones. I hope I can do this!

   There’s a curious guy in my class. He’s so tall! But his mind is 12 years old. He told me he thinks he’s in love with one of the girls I sit with, “the blond one”, as he mentioned. He doesn’t even know her name! Craziness is already on! But that’s okay, it’s funny to watch, really.

   The air condotioning in my class is a little strong and I got a flu because of it. Nice, right? I feel sleepy and slow. But who cares? Today I’m finally going to the cinema! We’re going to watch  Doubt.

   I’ll listen to the rest of the songs on the new Lily Allen’s CD now. Maybe it’s because of my little flu, but I think I might have written a confused post. Bah, you can understand me, can’t you?

   :S

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So close!

   In a few days the USP results will come out and I’ll discover if I’ll study in a federal or in a payed college. I really hope I pass in USP. The thing is, both this list and the beginning of the classes of my plan B college are in the same day! I’m freaking out here, because I can’t stop thinking about the ‘trote’ in the college and that stupid list! I’ve tried to focus and visualize my name in USP and for me, the possibility of getting a spot there is pretty plausible.

   However, how am I supposed to SEE if I did pass if I will be on CLASS?! I don’t wanna find out by a call of my aunt screaming on the phone that I’ve passed, or worse: finding out that no one had called yet. Oh God, that’s going to be torturing. A friend told me that usually the guys of ‘fuvest’ release the lists one day before the official date. I hope it’s true. I just can do that, nothing more.

   Now, thinking about my plan B college, I really liked it. The buildings are made of a clean and red brick and there are many trees and little restaurants inside. It remembers me of that American college, Brown. People there seem to be very nice and that ‘trote’ also doesn’t seem to be a threat to your life ( though they’ll serve drinks for people, as I heard. I’ll say no, of course. I hate those things. ). But still, I’m nervous.

   I just wanna see what’s my future going to be within 2 days. On the other hand, I don’t wanna start classes so soon in case I don’t pass USP ( i will pass, I WILL PASS! ). I need to stop doing that to myself, to think about possibilities of the future SO MUCH. It’s always surprisingly better when we let it go, right? I’ll just shut up and forget about it for 2 more days.

   When my sister wakes up I’ll watch American Idol with her. Helps me unwind.

   🙂

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