Yeah, kill me, I always do that

   God, it’s been a long time since I last wrote here. I missed this! It’s just that things at university are really hard and projects and tests are popping everywhere. But it’s better now, since my last test was last Friday (and I did really well, thank God!).

  However, some holidays wouldn’t bother me right now. I still have plenty of things to do and sometimes I want to disappear. I’ve found ways to escape all the stress and I have to say, those are my favourite moments recently! I watch tv shows mainly, but when I have time I paint my nails. I’ve found some pretty different colors and some of them have never been tested. But I just can’t relax completely because while I’m “escaping”, a part inside of me screams that there are things to be done. I’m not irresponsible AT ALL. Sometimes I think I overdo things, and that’s why I get so tired and frustrated. But I guess it’s part of who I am (what a freaking cliche!). I just CAN’T let everything go and just “be happy”, I feel like I have obligations and I want to accomplish them in the absolutely best way I can. That’s okay, you know? Afterall, in the end, I’m proud of what I’ve reached.

  Heey, those tv shows are getting better and better! I have at least 14 different ones to watch. I’ve started watching soap opera too! The evening one that airs here in Brazil. Although I know it’s really shallow and totally unreal, it’s so good to relax!

  Changing subjects, I’m considering buying a new cellphone! A big fancy one full of nice tools and with one button for each letter of the freaking alphabet because I can’t stand having to press five times a button to pick a letter in my texts! The thing is they’re too expensive so I’ll have to think wisely which one to buy and IF this is the right time.

  Well, that’s all for now. I’ll watch Greek, you should see it!

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Illustration Sunday Antecipated

It’s because I’m going to travel tomorrow! This week’s theme was faeries!

Fairy

I wanted my fairy to look playful and a little bit clumsy, and to be honest she really seems a little awkward. I don’t know how to draw the human body correctly, so her arms and legs are a little bit funny. However I really liked her clothes!

That’s it for the week. I don’t know if I’ll be able to participate of the next week’s drawing session, but I’ll try!

Illustration Sunday

   For sure that’s a good reason to keep coming back to this blog at least once a week. This “project” was created by my dear group of girls: Tamie, Pat and Vicky and I hope we can keep this going for years! The theme of this week was Imaginary Friends. I tried to draw something twice and then threw it all away. However, this one is a little bit funny and I liked it. It’s supposed to be a big and crazy candy, knowing that children like colorful and sweet things. I hope we all improve our skills during these good times. My sister, nevertheless was born an artist, so she only needs to improve a tiny bit of her skills. Well, let me shut up now. Here it is:

Imaginary Friend

   I enjoyed drawing this, even if it looks like a children’s painting, haha!

Finally: Holidays!

   I can’t even believe it! My holidays were so short last year and this one. Usually we have December and January to relax, and on the beginning of February we start school/college. However, last year I had exams to do in order to enter university (the famous “vestibulares” here in Brazil), therefore I spent the hole month of December and the first week of January studying for USP, the govern university. As you may know, I didn’t pass and entered in my second option university, Mackenzie (which now I love and am really glad with).

   Yesterday was the last exam! I think I did well in all of them, and thank God I won’t have to do any subject again. I know people who will have to do about 4 subjects again…I feel bad for them, because that really delays your development in university. Well, what matters is that me and all of my friends (and a good number of my classmates) are on HOLIDAYS! I’m soo, happy! I’ve never began my holidays so soon! But that’s a little reward for working so hard the past years I guess. I know it won’t last long, though, because soon I’ll have to work and then holidays won’t exist.

   But this month they won’t be quite peaceful and dull as they always were. I’ll study spanish in my school and I’ll take car classes, haha! I wanna get my license and be a good driver. What I don’t want to do is to take those BORING theoretic classes, which last FOUR hours EACH for nine days. Well, we have to make some sacrifices in order to get what we want, right? That’s a little simulation for me, I guess.

   Oooh, one thing I’ve noticed: I’ve become even MORE addicted to nail polish! I’ve even made a mixture of two nail polishes that I saw on a website. Ooh, such beautiful colors! I really want one from a new collection of Impala, a Brazilian brand we have. It’s purple but with a shade o grey…so nice! But I can’t find it anywhere, so I’ve sent an e-mail to the company and after three days I guess, they’ve sent me an answer with a phone of a guy who will tell me where to buy it.

   Well, I think I’ve written plenty of words today. I’ll try to write more often, now that I’m on holidays. Now I’ll see my other addiction: pupegirl!

   Byee xoxo

Settling down

   Well, I’m finally getting used to my new place of studies. Sometimes I still have doubts whether I am in a place where I can grow in my future career, but I think I couldn’t have made a better choice. The people are really nice and friendly. This environment is so much different from the one at school: people actually TALK to everybody. Of course that there are some exceptions, but they don’t actually harm anyone.

   I’m learning different philosophers ideas and my knowledge is expanding. In maths we’re learning things which are very useful and therefore, I get very interested into. Haha, people there think I’m very intelligent. The thing is that they don’t know how to separate wise people from the hardworking ones (which is the category I fit in), but that’s okay. What’s very cool is that I actually don’t feel angry to help people anymore. I don’t think that they are getting an advantage or just trying to use me. I might aswell be wrong, but I got very happy yesterday when a girl managed to do the economics exercise right. My class isn’t full of rich brats who judge you by your “coolness” or your accessories. They love funny and crazy people and I think that’s why I know and talk to so many people (mainly because of my crazyness, I mean).

   To sum up, I think I’m very good where I am. I hope to grow even more with the subjects to come. I want to travel a lot and meet very important people who I only know by text messaging on MSN. I want to be able to HELP people who need help and are grateful for getting a little suport instead of ignoring you after they move on. I know I will meet very annoying, self-centered and mean people in my life, but I also will meet a few people that are worth all of it. And I want to fall in love at least once. To meet a guy who is different and who understands my ways of thinking or at least is interested on getting to know them. Hopefully I’ll meet a cool guy in one of my future trips, just like in the romance novels.

   Well, I have to go now, my sister’s calling me to see the new design of the houses in The Sims 3. I better move fast, because she has already called me stupid, haha!

Tired

   Today I was supposed to be in a conference regarding how to be ecologically correct in your future company. A nice subject, right? Well, I was going to go until yesterday, when all things started changing. It’s not my fault those bastards don’t have the sense of ORGANIZATION. I went to our directory with two more girls. We asked about what time the bus would leave from university to the conference and the woman who was there told us that there wasn’t any bus to take us and that we would have to get there by ourselves. Furthermore, in the e-mail we received on the previous Friday, it was written that our class absences would not be canceled, which was not what was said during a lecture we attended to. So, due to those two facts I didn’t go today. If that was different from what was previously mentioned, I imagined what else could be. In addition to that fact, today I had a philosophy test and THANK GOD I chose to go to school, because we did it in pairs.

   We also had a little evaluation of Communication & Expression class. We had to do an abstract of a little text regarding personal income. Is was easy, but I’m glad I did it. The thing is: I really worked my brain out today, therefore I’m very tired. However, I’d better finish my methodology book. I’ll just help my mom figure out something in her e-mail before I do that, though.

   See ya!

Please, don’t swear at me

   Yeah, like someone would complain I haven’t been posting every couple of days. Nobody even reads this! But that’s okay, I like writing on it.

   I’ve been really busy with college and Spanish lessons. We have tons of presentations, texts to read, exercises to do, compositions to make…I don’t have time anymore to relax and paint my nails like I used to. But that sacrifice I can bear. I really enjoyed college. It’s a different environment from the one at school: people are more receptive and nice. I’ve already made some pretty nice friends who share some interests in common and have similar points of view. They’re all very nice and easy going, which is perfect for me. One of them, Samantha, is CRAZY! She loves drinking any kind of drink and gets drunk and happy easily. But she’s a lovely person, the sweetestgirl I’ve met, actually. The thing that bothers me is that she was forced to transfer her classes to the periods at night. Her mom wants her to work and help paying college. Regarding that little fact, I also need to get a job. But I think I’ll wait until the end of this year, so I can learn something that’s worth practicing.

   I’m feeling really professional writing here. Not because of any possible non-existing skills I might have, but because I’m writing this on my new notebook! It’s a Dell, a blue one. Really pretty. My entire family gave me as a gift for entering university. Later on I’ll show them how it works.

   What else? Regarding music, my father managed to get us into the Keane show on the March 10th here in my city. Keane is my favourite band ever, so I almost cried of joy when I heard Tom Chaplin sing live in front of my eyes. These guys are the best, they don’t only make music: it’s pure and complete art. Regarding new discovered groups, I’m really into Cinema Bizarre. I loved they’re style not only in music, but in fashion. I think that there are two guys who are very handsome, ha, if my friends read this I think they’ll say I went nuts. You should listen to them sometimes.

   Well, I’ve been here for quite a long time now, I better go and dry my hair. I promise I’ll try to write on this more often. This promise is only for myself, though.

   See you all later.

After a deep breath

   I haven’t written a lot recently, I know. I guess I was a little bit depressed with the results of fuvest and all the new experiences that I’m facing right now (which are good and scary at the same time). Well, as you may have realised, I didn’t pass in USP. I was shocked, really. I know there was a GREAT chance I wouldn’t pass, but when we have hope, it sometimes gets bigger than the truth.

   But I guess I’m getting better. The pain of not having my friends around me anymore is getting weaker. I know they’ll always be there. At least for now I know that. My classmates are very funny and are always laughing. I already have a work to do! I’m enjoying doing it, tough, haha!

   Life goes on! I promised myself I would see the positive side of things and I WILL manage to do this more often. I keep watching my dose of tv shows wich always cheer me up. I keep listening to music. I look forward to buying my college books and to studying. I wanna be a good student, one of the best ones. I hope I can do this!

   There’s a curious guy in my class. He’s so tall! But his mind is 12 years old. He told me he thinks he’s in love with one of the girls I sit with, “the blond one”, as he mentioned. He doesn’t even know her name! Craziness is already on! But that’s okay, it’s funny to watch, really.

   The air condotioning in my class is a little strong and I got a flu because of it. Nice, right? I feel sleepy and slow. But who cares? Today I’m finally going to the cinema! We’re going to watch  Doubt.

   I’ll listen to the rest of the songs on the new Lily Allen’s CD now. Maybe it’s because of my little flu, but I think I might have written a confused post. Bah, you can understand me, can’t you?

   :S

So close!

   In a few days the USP results will come out and I’ll discover if I’ll study in a federal or in a payed college. I really hope I pass in USP. The thing is, both this list and the beginning of the classes of my plan B college are in the same day! I’m freaking out here, because I can’t stop thinking about the ‘trote’ in the college and that stupid list! I’ve tried to focus and visualize my name in USP and for me, the possibility of getting a spot there is pretty plausible.

   However, how am I supposed to SEE if I did pass if I will be on CLASS?! I don’t wanna find out by a call of my aunt screaming on the phone that I’ve passed, or worse: finding out that no one had called yet. Oh God, that’s going to be torturing. A friend told me that usually the guys of ‘fuvest’ release the lists one day before the official date. I hope it’s true. I just can do that, nothing more.

   Now, thinking about my plan B college, I really liked it. The buildings are made of a clean and red brick and there are many trees and little restaurants inside. It remembers me of that American college, Brown. People there seem to be very nice and that ‘trote’ also doesn’t seem to be a threat to your life ( though they’ll serve drinks for people, as I heard. I’ll say no, of course. I hate those things. ). But still, I’m nervous.

   I just wanna see what’s my future going to be within 2 days. On the other hand, I don’t wanna start classes so soon in case I don’t pass USP ( i will pass, I WILL PASS! ). I need to stop doing that to myself, to think about possibilities of the future SO MUCH. It’s always surprisingly better when we let it go, right? I’ll just shut up and forget about it for 2 more days.

   When my sister wakes up I’ll watch American Idol with her. Helps me unwind.